"We'll figure something out"
::Blair wanted Nate. They still hadn't had sex and she wouldn't mind doing it with him right now. It obviously wasnt that, exact moment she pictured, but those planned situations never seemed to work, so she was up for just about anything::
"Yeah, we're prety clever."
::He grinned and picked up both their plates and walked into the kitched.::
::She followed Nate into the kitchen and put her plate down::
"I'll be right back"
::She kissed his cheek and then turned and walked towards the bathroom. This was a process Blair was used to. It had been going on at every meal/snack/nervous situation since she was 12. She walked into the bathroom, shutting the door lightly behind her, she pulled a clip out of her purse and pulled her long dark hair back behind her ears, clipping it before kneeling on the ground::
::Nate rinsed the plates and left them in the sink, the housekeeper would take care of them in the morning. He walked back towards his bedroom, and heard a weird sound from the bathroom. He knocked gently and opened the door.::
"Blair, are you ok?"
::He looked and saw her head over the toilet.::
"What... what are you doing?"
::Blair quickly jumped to her feet, wiping her mouth with a tissue::
"I wasn't feeling good"
::He shook his head.::
"No, Blair. I saw.. I saw your finger down your throat."
::Blair answered immediatly::
"Sometimes it just, helps to...get it out. You know?"
::Even though she thought she was making sense, she was positive Nate knew her well enough to know if she was lying or not::
::he didn't believe her. He walked closer to her and grabbed her hand.::
"Blair, you know that I know you better than that. Why would you do this yourself?"
"Nate- its not what you think it is.."
::She hated lying to him. But what else was she supposed to do. No one knew about this, and she wasn't about to let him know::
::He brushed away some of her hair.::
"No, I know what it is. My cousin had it. It's ok, but Blair- you're better than this. You're beautiful."
::Tears were streaming down her face:: "No Nate, I'm not."
::He kissed a tear away.::
"I wouldn't lie to you. You're the most beautiful girl in New York City. Hell, the world. You don't need to do this. It's not attractive, I mean- puking is not sexy."
"Nate its not something I can just change. I need to do it"
::She walked over to the sink and splashed water on her face, lookin at her reflection in the mirror::
::He went and rubbed his hand on her back.::
"I'll help you. You don't need to do it, but I know it'll be hard to stop."
::She didn't like to be weak and need other people to help her::
"I'll be fine"
::She leaned over the counter and put her head in her hands::
"So much for sex tonight" ::she mumbled quietly. As soon as she said it she wish she hadn't. maybe he didnt hear her::