"I--I...Yes" ::Blair had been going over it in her head for years- but now that it was finally time, she was nervous. Nate had done this already before, with her best friend, the one person that Blair always felt was pefect and flawless compared to her. And now, she was afraid Nate would be comparing the two girls the entire time::
::He grinned and didn't say a word. He kissed her again and reached behind her back and unhooked her bra. He trailed kisses down her neck. He reached for her skirt, and slowly slid it down her legs. He looked at her and smiled.::
"You're beautiful, Blair."
::Blair was getting more nervous as each second passed. She laid here, almost completely naked on Nate's bed. She was vulnerable and--naked. She started fidgeting with his shirt, pulling it over his head and then moved on to fighting with his belt for what seemed like 10 minutes::
::He noticed she was nervous. He knew she had never done this before. He reached to help her with his belt and he smiled at her. He kissed her gently on the lips.::
"It's going to be ok."
::She slid his pants off and ran her hands all over his body. She was trying to do everything right and going over every book she's read, every movie she's seen, every detail anyone has ever told her::
"I want you," She whispered.
::he looked into her eyes, and could tell she wasn't ready.::
"I want you, too. But, we should wait. He rolled him self from off of her and laid on the bed next to her.::
::She sat up quickly, pulling Nate's shirt around her, just so she wasn't naked for one more second than she needed to be::
::He shook his head.::
"Nothing's wrong. I just don't tink we should rush this. We just got back together, and we should wait."
::tears were coming back to blair's eyes::
"I guess-you're right"
::Inside she was sure he didn't want her. maybe he wanted georgie or--or Serena::
::He saw the tears in her eyes.::
"No, no, Blair. Don't cry. It's not that I don't want this.. wow, do I. But, we just got back together, what.. few days ago?"
::He pulled back the covers on the bed and slid under. He grabbed Blair's hand and pulled her under them and pulled the covers over them as he put his arms around her.::
"I know, you're right"
::She leaned into Nate as they both slid under the covers::
"We'll be ok right"
::in the back of her mind she was thinking about what happened in the bathroom-he had stopped her before she had finished and she could almost feel the food filling up in her stomach, she felt disgusted with herself. She tried to brush away those feelings but she just couldnt::
::He nodded and kissed her on the forehead.::
"Of course. And the longer the wait, the better it is when it finally happens."
::He smiled and laid his head on the pillow.::